Interesting.

Wow, it's been ages since I've been on here. I do have a tumblr but I wanted to write here because I felt this type of channel was more appropriate for what I wanted to write. Also, I don't want the person that this blog is about to find out about it. It's something he should already know & it's also a mini vent. If you do find it, please don't be alarmed. I'm over you as a potential boyfriend. lol.

I'm liking how things are. Between you and me. I don't think I've ever felt more comfortable or at ease than right now. It sucks because I'll be gone for however long... but I know that you'll come to visit. I know I'm getting ahead of myself a little bit but I know that you're going to come over and visit. It's in your nature.

You are my friend, first and foremost. Yes, we've been on this stupid roller coaster but I think things are finally settling... I like it. Please don't be an ass like before and treat me nice one day & bad the next. Extreme nice then extreme not nice. No explanation either. It pissed me off. You know about this already. "You were angry at me for a year!?" "No, not angry... just annoyed"

I know you won't ever admit it to me but I know that the awkwardness was because you failed to tell me about her. Cue scene where you ran from one end of the bar to the other when I showed up. What? You think a bitch fight was going to go down? Puh-lease. Besides, we were fine, then you told us to shake hands when we had just spent the past 5 minutes gossiping. Lame. I wouldn't have cared, I would have just liked to have known instead of being lied to.
In fact I would have appreciated it if you told me that day, the day of clarification. Now that bar is forever etched into my brain as that place. But that's all in the past & I really couldn't care less about it now.

I know that I haven't been the best person either and for that I apologise. You've been trying so hard to be apart of my life when most people in the situation would not have even bothered and for that, I thank-you. It's because of this (among other things but this tops it) that I think the world of you and I think you are an amazing individual with the biggest heart... I've already told you this. So please, just keep going on this winning streak of being an awesome friend who gives & gives and things will be fine and dandy. Yes, after everything, you have a special place in my heart. lol. Don't puke over this cornyness because it's true.

:)

mucho love,
me.